Ghost Talks: Losing Friendship with Dream Boy

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Dear Ghosts,

I know it’s been a while since I’ve talked about him on here, but I guess I should update you guys on Dream boy and us. Weeks after Christmas we finally talked backed to each other.

Things were fine, we talked things out, and we were good or at least that’s what I thought. Last month we had to officially end our friendship. He said his parents thought we were dating again and threatened to kick him out and disown him.

It happen when he didn’t text me for a whole day. I didn’t think much of it, I just thought he either had a bad day at work, or were just in one of his moods. I texted him to check up on him, and it took a few minutes for me to finally to drag what was bothering him. And that’s when he finally told me. His parents threatened to disown him and kick him out of the house if he continued talking to me.

I knew it was going to happen sooner or later but I still broke down.  He asked if he could call me and say a few last words and apologize.

We talked and he said he wanted me to be happy, go to school pursue my passion and he wanted the best for me and my family. He also said he wanted things to cool off, and wanted to try to contact sometime in the future, and If I’m still interested I could convince his family why I’m good for him.

He said other things but I blocked them out considering I was crying badly. And was also having an anxiety attack.

The last last part bothered me a lot. Because even up to this point he still thought his family would change.

There was also something very unusual his voice. I don’t know if he was about to break down, or if he was scared but he sounded a bit different. Especially when he said he loved me. I don’t know if his family were around him but the way he said he loved me was unusual. He called me by my name. Which he never did. He always called me by the nickname he gave me.

Anyway the week after was hard, but it strangely got easier. I don’t know if it’s because I expected it to happen and now that it’s over my anxiety is somewhat relieved or what.

Now I know what you’re probably asking do I miss him. At times yes. But the relationship wasn’t healthy. The whole situation between me and dream boy was a mess and I think both of us could agree to that.

That being said, there’s comes a time where you have to let go of people that settle and don’t fight for change for you or in their own lives.

 
I’m not going to talk entirely negatively about dream boy because we did have great times. He was the first boy I fell in love with.. Though I’m disappointed in dream boy when I reflect on our relationship. To move on for myself all I can do is wish him the best. All I hope is that one day he finds his voice and uses it…….

 

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Finding Identity in Art.

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If there were one of the many things I wish I could change about the past. It would definitely would be taking my break from art (drawing portraits). 

But due to unexpected experiences and events I focused on what was more important during those times.

And although I’ve used my other talents of art in a different ways like cooking and digital game designing. I wish I continued my love of drawing at the same pace of my love for cooking.

There are so many things I still need to work on and learn. And I can only think if I didn’t take that break maybe I would be there.

The toughest challenge through all of it is not knowing my style. I’ve been playing around with different styles like using color in my portraits. (Which you would not have catched me doing when I was younger.) To doing more natural, and tone downed looks from my usual dark portraits.

It’s very annoying and frustrating. I see so many great artists, hell younger than me with amazing art talents and identity behind their pieces, and I’m just like when will I find mine?

I know. I’m comparing my art to others even though I just told you all not to do that in my last post. (How to be a greater you for 2016). But as an artist that always been hard on myself, I guess it’s normal for me to feel this way.

Slow Cooker Buffalo Wings

slowcookerbuffalowings1Dear Ghosts,

I don’t know if you feel this way, but there something extra special about eating wings during football season. Especially during the Superbowl. The yummy and delicious dips, and trays, and then the star in my household the Buffalo wings. I don’t think there has ever been a year, where I and my family hasn’t eaten our favorite wings. You can definitely call that a tradition!

But this year will be a little different I won’t be watching the Super bowl this year. Due to my lack of interests in both of the teams. But this would still make a delicious Super Bowl or any dinner night meal.

Instead of seasoning the wings with the typical salt and pepper. I decided to make my own, buffalo style seasoning. And boy was it delicious! I combined my new favorite seasoning, Siracha seasoning. I love this stuff! You can literally use this on anything, and it will taste delicious and give a nice kick to any dish.

Along with the Siracha seasoning I also combined; salt, cayenne pepper, pepper, garlic powder, a pinch of sugar to tame the heat, and cornstarch to make the wings slightly crisp, and make the sauce thick and as it reduce in the slow cooker.

This isn’t like other slow cooker recipes where you can dump everything in a pot and forget about it and go back to your Netflix marathon. You have to do a little prep work. Like lightly frying the wings until they were brown, not cooked, but brown and crisp on the outside. I recommend you doing this so they don’t have a slimy, skin texture. But after that just simply pour your hot sauce over and cook on low for 2 ½ hours.

I would suggest checking in between the 1 ½ slot to see if their tender enough for you. I left mine in for two hours and they were falling off the bone tender. Which is always a good thing for me. But if you would like them to hold together a little more check them and seem if they are tender to your liking.

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  • Ingredients:
  • 2 tablespoons of Siracha seasoning
  • 2 teaspoons of salt
  • 1 teaspoon of garlic powder
  • ½ teaspoon of black pepper
  • 1 tablespoon of cayenne pepper
  • 1 teaspoon of sugar
  • 3-4 tablespoons of corn starch.
  • 1 ½ lb of jumbo whole wings cut.
  • For the sauce:
  • 1 cup of Franks Red hot sauce
  • 1 tablespoon of sugar
  • 2 small cloves of garlic
  1. Start Preheating your slow cooker to HIGH so it will be ready.
  2. Combine your seasonings
  3. Sprinkle the seasoning over your wings.
  4. Rub and make sure the seasoning is o the chicken. Then place in a heated pan of about 2 inches of oil to brow them. Not to cook, but brown the skin.
  5. Pour the sauce over the wings and cook on low for 2 hours. Check during the 1 hour range to see if they are cooked to your liking.
  6. Be careful, and place them on a serving tray and garnish them to you liking. I just chose to you parsley and blue cheese.

Recipe note * I added a little water to the sauce while it reduced down in the cooker to prevent it from being too salty from the hot sauce.

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